Anxiety and depression. In today’s society it is being pushed as being okay, even though at the same time, the government wants into our medical files to put people on lists to limit our rights and keep us under some kind of watchlist. I mention this because those who might otherwise benefit from certain types of medication are afraid to be outed as broken. And the sad part is many people might be suffering from one or both of these conditions (from mild to extreme) and not even know it.
I know I did not know for most of my life. Personally, I thought I was just suffering from boredom. To top it off, because I had been in a few correctional institutions as a kid, and had to see either psychologists or psychiatrists, with their many tests to take, and yet none of them never mentioned it to me, and they certainly never tried to help me; whether with counselling or medication.
And if you are a Christian as I am, then it is looked down upon because you are broken in some way. Oh, many will profess that there is nothing wrong, and if you need help you should get it. However, many ministries will not hire you, or limit what you can do. And many churches will either limit what you can volunteer to do or not let you. And you can forget being a minister. You can preach or pray since you are lacking in some way. I used to be a minister for many years but did not even bother to renew this past year as I know how the denomination feels about not being able to stand in faith and be delivered.
I am of the conviction that the Holy Spirit is the one who put the idea in my head to talk to my doctor about it. First, I was given anxiety medication and it helped but did not fully resolve my difficulties, so we added a low dose of antidepressant medication. It helped allot, but still was not quite there yet. So, we upped the dose a little and I started feeling better, much better. And as time has gone on, my life is not only so much better (I know, overusing the word), but I have found as the months have passed, I have become less and less angry. And am very remorseful for how I have treated people over the many years of my life.
A great unexpected side effect is that I have begun to get my relationship with Jesus back. I will not say I lost my faith, but I will say that I had lost the close sense of His presence. So no matter what anyone may say or imply, do not let their views or feelings stop you from getting the help that is out there. And if you are a Christian, and especially you ministers, if they do not except you, then just go somewhere else where they will. Because no one can take the calling Jesus has on your life. God is your Father and He is the one who calls you, and He is not going to take it back!